A Million Broken Pieces

For Hanzo Saizho_Amakusa

Sometimes I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
I remember what we've been through
I remember what was said
And I remember
What was done...

A thousand ships I have sailed
A thousand lips, I have sealed
But you, will always be the point
I seem to return to...

I wonder if you ever remembered me
When you woke up in the morning
And when you went to sleep at night...

I wonder if you still remember
The promises you made
The promises you said
Will be kept...

I wonder if you still feel me beside you
If there is still a place for me in your heart
I wonder if you still feel the same way I do
Every single day, that we are apart...

But most of all, I wonder

Why did you leave me behind, with no trace to follow?
No sweet words to comfort my darkest nights
Leaving my heart, dry and hollow?

Why did you go, without saying goodbye?
No chance to even tell, how much you made me cry?
Not even a hint, if the reason you left, was because of me...?

I wonder and I wonder, I ponder on and on
Perhaps I will never know, perhaps it was me, after all...

You went away
And left me to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart...

And yet
Underneath a million of these broken pieces
This heart still yearns for you...

Praying, that somewhere out there
You have found your happiness
You have found what you were looking for
Because I know, it was never me
I would only be in your way...

And so in my dreams
Amidst the faceless crowd
Your face, will always be the angelic face I'll see
The one, who will always have a place
Underneath a million pieces, of my broken heart...


ash komikiwa
9.00 am
11/06/2010
Friday